In my early teens I got the reassurance I needed to start my spiritual journey. Ever since I was a child Ive had thoughts about whats on the other side and what cant be seen with the naked untrained eye. I kept these thoughts to my self because they were never a topic anywhere and I felt isolated and alone with these thoughts and ideas. It was after finding and reading a book in my parents bookshelf, picked up by my mum from a Hare Krishna munk, that I realized that there are more people out there with these thoughts. That lead me start my long and winding journey, which I want to share with you
I started out going to the temple here in Oslo, Norway. This was my only reference to a spiritual life and I wanted to know more. I was around 15 or 16 at the time. I was in a group of outsiders smoking cannabis and experimenting with other drugs. When coming to the temple, I fell in love with the ecstatic practice of kirtan and bhajan. I could fall into the chants and feel joy and love. But, when the "sermon" started, there was a change of energy. I fell into boredom. It went on like this for quite some time. I was heavily influenced by the philosophy of bhakti yoga, but could never quite get into the whole practice they were doing. For me they also had a very intolerant and prejudicial philosophy as well. I started going more and more into the drug world, because I fell more and more on the outside of the "normal" world. I spent a lot of time with some very disturbed souls that learned me a lot about the dark side of the Universe. People who unconsciously used dark magic to take energy from others and to dominate. A very hard period in my life, but that has given me valuable lessons I wouldn't be without.
I then drifted into a more hippie crowd of people who made parties in the forest and used psychedelic drugs. It was in this time I had my first shamanic initiations. I had always been drawn to the word shaman. I don't know why. It just has a certain ring to it that fascinates me. Our parties weren't usual parties, they were more like ceremonies. We would dance the whole night, tribal style and connect with the forces of nature. Of course none of us were trained in ceremonial magic or any other spiritual practice, but we were intuitively doing what needed to get done in order to clean the space so the new positive energies could come through. I was many times filled with a divine force that moved my body in different ways and patterns to change around energies and create a new order. A very intense and powerful time of my life. At one point though, I was being told from the other side that the time had come to stop taking the drugs and learn how to do what I was doing without the drugs. Sadly, I had no clue how to do it and I had no idea which person to approach. So, I kept on using drugs. This lead me to the edge of insanity and finally to three years in hell with opiate addiction.I don't recommend anyone to take the path I've done with the use of drugs to open your consciousness. If I had known then what I know now, I would have chosen another approach. I thank my lucky star and Guardians that I've come through it all with a minimal amount of damage. Not all my friends from back then was that lucky.
One night, I had enough of the life I had made for myself. I had the clearsight I needed to make the change. I realized I could go on living the way I did and die or make changes and start living the way I used to dream about. I chose the latter. I went to rehab and started making the changes I needed. The rehab provided me the space I needed to become clean and re centered. A part of the rehabs program was to connect with a higher power and I was very happy that I could use time in rehab to meditate and start nurturing my spirituality in a clean manner. This was what I had been told to do many years ago. I started listening to shamanic drumming to learn how to journey and I invested a lot of time in meditation. It took me a good 3-4 months of dilligent practice to learn how to journey with the drum. It was very simple actually, but as usual I had complicated things. This new way of listening inwards started me on a new chapter of my life and lead me to meet a lot of interesting people, some of them became my teachers and close friends.
About 7 years ago I started dreaming about plants. They said they had something to teach me. This lead me to eventually go to Peru to find an indigenous shaman who could teach me their way of healing. I went back and forth to the jungle for 3.5 years. And learned a lot, both good and bad. In that part of the world, black magic is still very much alive and I saw my fair share of it. It made me break my relationship to my master and go my own way. I decided that from that point I would follow my own inner sage and healer. I knew that I needed to find a way to consciously separate to be able to access the spheres where I had traveled during the time with my master. That lead me to search for learning to astral project. I found a great youtube video that resonated deeply in my heart and soul. It was the first(I believe) video that Joe made and I knew I had to connect with the person behind this video. Since then I have been back and forth with my astral projection practice, but I know its something I need to learn.
Im now in a point in my life where I have to start living from the wisdom I have obtained over the years. Ive had resistance to step into my power and take responsibility. Now is a time to start living fully from all I've learned and to bring my gifts into the world. I'm recommitting to learn astral projection and I'm going to invest the time needed to learn it.
I look forward to share the continuation of my journey together with all of you!