Greetings Julie, so great to see you here! You are indeed a gifted light worker with a deep passion and connection to spirituality. I thank you for your presence here and look forward to hearing all about your beautiful journey.

In my early teens I got the reassurance I needed to start my spiritual journey. Ever since I was a child Ive had thoughts about whats on the other side and what cant be seen with the naked untrained eye. I kept these thoughts to my self because they were never a topic anywhere and I felt isolated and alone with these thoughts and ideas. It was after finding and reading a book in my parents bookshelf, picked up by my mum from a Hare Krishna munk, that I realized that there are more people out there with these thoughts. That lead me start my long and winding journey, which I want to share with you

I started out going to the temple here in Oslo, Norway. This was my only reference to a spiritual life and I wanted to know more. I was around 15 or 16 at the time. I was in a group of outsiders smoking cannabis and experimenting with other drugs. When coming to the temple, I fell in love with the ecstatic practice of kirtan and bhajan. I could fall into the chants and feel joy and love. But, when the "sermon" started, there was a change of energy. I fell into boredom. It went on like this for quite some time. I was heavily influenced by the philosophy of bhakti yoga, but could never quite get into the whole practice they were doing. For me they also had a very intolerant and prejudicial philosophy as well. I started going more and more into the drug world, because I fell more and more on the outside of the "normal" world. I spent a lot of time with some very disturbed souls that learned me a lot about the dark side of the Universe. People who unconsciously used dark magic to take energy from others and to dominate. A very hard period in my life, but that has given me valuable lessons I wouldn't be without.

I then drifted into a more hippie crowd of people who made parties in the forest and used psychedelic drugs. It was in this time I had my first shamanic initiations. I had always been drawn to the word shaman. I don't know why. It just has a certain ring to it that fascinates me. Our parties weren't usual parties, they were more like ceremonies. We would dance the whole night, tribal style and connect with the forces of nature. Of course none of us were trained in ceremonial magic or any other spiritual practice, but we were intuitively doing what needed to get done in order to clean the space so the new positive energies could come through. I was many times filled with a divine force that moved my body in different ways and patterns to change around energies and create a new order. A very intense and powerful time of my life. At one point though, I was being told from the other side that the time had come to stop taking the drugs and learn how to do what I was doing without the drugs. Sadly, I had no clue how to do it and I had no idea which person to approach. So, I kept on using drugs. This lead me to the edge of insanity and finally to three years in hell with opiate addiction.I don't recommend anyone to take the path I've done with the use of drugs to open your consciousness. If I had known then what I know now, I would have chosen another approach. I thank my lucky star and Guardians that I've come through it all with a minimal amount of damage. Not all my friends from back then was that lucky.

One night, I had enough of the life I had made for myself. I had the clearsight I needed to make the change. I realized I could go on living the way I did and die or make changes and start living the way I used to dream about. I chose the latter. I went to rehab and started making the changes I needed. The rehab provided me the space I needed to become clean and re centered. A part of the rehabs program was to connect with a higher power and I was very happy that I could use time in rehab to meditate and start nurturing my spirituality in a clean manner. This was what I had been told to do many years ago. I started listening to shamanic drumming to learn how to journey and I invested a lot of time in meditation. It took me a good 3-4 months of dilligent practice to learn how to journey with the drum. It was very simple actually, but as usual I had complicated things. This new way of listening inwards started me on a new chapter of my life and lead me to meet a lot of interesting people, some of them became my teachers and close friends.

About 7 years ago I started dreaming about plants. They said they had something to teach me. This lead me to eventually go to Peru to find an indigenous shaman who could teach me their way of healing. I went back and forth to the jungle for 3.5 years. And learned a lot, both good and bad. In that part of the world, black magic is still very much alive and I saw my fair share of it. It made me break my relationship to my master and go my own way. I decided that from that point I would follow my own inner sage and healer. I knew that I needed to find a way to consciously separate to be able to access the spheres where I had traveled during the time with my master. That lead me to search for learning to astral project. I found a great youtube video that resonated deeply in my heart and soul. It was the first(I believe) video that Joe made and I knew I had to connect with the person behind this video. Since then I have been back and forth with my astral projection practice, but I know its something I need to learn.

Im now in a point in my life where I have to start living from the wisdom I have obtained over the years. Ive had resistance to step into my power and take responsibility. Now is a time to start living fully from all I've learned and to bring my gifts into the world. I'm recommitting to learn astral projection and I'm going to invest the time needed to learn it.

I look forward to share the continuation of my journey together with all of you!
Namaste!

Brother Magnus, forgive my delayed response here. I wanted to both thank and commend you here for such an honest examination into your past. Your path has been an involved one and you are a fine example of authentic spiritual evolution. Enjoy the day.

My spiritual journey began when I felt a calling to know my existence. Not just to understand what was happening around me, but what was happening within me. I think when we really get down to the core of these questions we inevitable arrive at the doorstep of Gnostic teachings and the spiritual paths of ancient times. Im sure most people here would agree, we dont quite get the whole picture from what we have available in most modern religions. Not all, but some. Im finding most people in this community are in the same boat here. The need to really know, in one way or another, spauned this spiritual quest. And its a beautiful one at that .

My spiritual journey started when one night succubus come to me she is stil whith me to this day before that i invasitagted iluminati and other things she literaly waked me up <3 namaste to all

Wow Milan! Thats quite a start. Its a pleasure to be speaking with you here in a proper manner. You had quite a few questions for us the last time we spoke. Feel free to ask them here, and myself and the others can respond in an open conversation with you. Really cool to have you among us here brother!
-Joseph

ty i am glad i am here i have couple a question does anyone know anything about succubus any experience and what abour reptilians anyone know something <3 namaste

Greetings to All,
I know this is an old question, but as a new person here, I am amazed at how similar everyone's answer is, that at the core, everyone is seeking something, perhaps questions to answers that our religions did not tell us, or a solution for some deep striving or feeling that something is missing. Some of us seek it through experiencing with drugs, as Magnus shared with us so openly; others through searching for answers through other religions than the one we were raised in, or through various philosophies, even If only the philosophy learned through hard knocks on the streets. We all learn and grow through these experiences. But the best source for answers comes from within, and learning astral traveling is just another way of learning to connect with that world within, for we are all more than what we seem. Just learning that we are souls on an infinite journey of learning about ourselves, a journey back to God, or Source of all Being, that from which we came, or whatever name you may have for It. Using drugs or alcohol is just an attempt to return to that Bliss, but that can in reality, just lead to more sorrow.

When we come here to learn astral traveling, we all intuitively know that by developing this skill that we can get closer to that Source, and by coming in contact with other beings in the astral plane, perhaps we can meet up with our personal guides, or angels that can help us in this journey. For some this skill comes quickly and easy, which tells me that that person has had experience with psychic abilities in a past life, and is only remembering and relearning how this is done. For others, it may take years of strict discipline, as I experienced, studying many teachings that tell us of who we are, why we are here, and how to reconnect to that source, That discipline most surely includes meditation of some sort, so that we can learn to quiet our minds, and keep focused on one objective. It may also include Yoga, or Martial Arts for disciplining the Body, so it can be still.

For me meditation seemed to yield little results, but your Higher Self keeps records of every effort you make to reconnect with Source, and eventually, I was led to Golden Dawn magic, which opened up my abilities quicker than hours, months and years of meditation alone did not. For the Western person, practicing rituals is a form of moving meditation that is more amenable to the man or woman of action as in the West. Whatever way you choose, I recommend doing it daily, and by giving yourself suggestions before sleep that you want to travel outside your body, although it is really within, will eventually start giving you results. So I guess I can say that finding a book on Yoga, that talked also about Reincarnation, is what led me to this lifelong journey, I thank you all for your stories, and I hope that what I have written here will help some of you in some way.
Love and Light to All, Doramage - a magical nickname I like to use

Im really liking your information Dorothy! Its nice to have you here. Im looking into a lot of what your saying. I do like the moving meditation idea weather it be like yoga, dancing or even a ritual. Very cool.

Wow, lots to read here. It sounds like some awesome journeys going on here. This was an inspiration. I think for me, although its not that fantastic like some of you, I woke up one day and felt like demanding more. More in the sense that I hadn't found any real answers in any platforms that claimed to have universal answers. Im not an ignorant person, or at least do not consider my self to be, but felt totally in the dark about certain things spiritually. I began a super intense study into many things, too many to mention, and it almost distracted me from making music. Thank goodness I stayed on track.

But the more i meditated and studied, the more I felt different. Different in a special way. I then began to look into astral travel and tried for almost a year. The first time i did separate, it was really smooth, and think it was only a few feet above me. I then exhaled and glided back down. This was enough to forever convince me that there was no doubt a LOT more than we admit to ourselves. Now I'm on this site and looking forward to solidifying my new understandings by diving into the universal truths of ancient wisdom. Cant wait!!